For several reasons that I will discuss in a later post, I really want to build a tiny house.
I’ve done most of the research, I’ve started my Sketchup 3D design course (thanks Tiny Nest), and I’m even in the middle of a mad sell-off of possessions on Craigslist so I’ll manage to squeeze into my non-existent-at-the-moment house. Plus it’s been a great mentality to incentivize me to save as much money as possible, so one day I’ll be able to afford to construct my mini shelter full time.
Despite this giant leap into house construction, along with the incredible excitement I feel about a grandiose project like this, every once in a while I get these little bouts of fear and hesitancy about the whole idea. That little voice speaks up and says “So, you made a chair in Grade 7 woodshop class and now you want to build a house? A little underqualified, don’t you think?” Or, “you need to be a perfectionist to build a house, and half the pictures hanging in your house are crooked.” Or, “building a house is tons of work, and all you did tonight was eat cereal and watch dog compilations on YouTube.” But they were so hilarious.
My inner voice was essentially saying that I probably wasn’t the right candidate. If I was to show up with resumé in hand to a tiny house building company, I would for sure get the “don’t contact us, we’ll contact you” line. It was weighing on me, and was making me question if this pursuit was not worth continuing.
But then something clicked.
I thought wait a second- not being a perfectionist, or an experienced builder, or having the innate ability to think several steps ahead doesn’t mean I shouldn’t build a house, it means that’s exactly what I should do. What better way to learn these skills and to make me think more critically, to set schedules and deadlines and to measure twice and cut once, then to construct the house that I live in? I would be forced to be a perfectionist and to learn the skills I need to save money and time. I would inherently improve as a person and learn skills that would serve me for the rest of my life.
Maybe this is the same fear that many of us experience when it comes to new frontiers and unknowns in our lives, and the reason we sometimes don’t try activities that scare us. We’re convinced that we’re a certain way like “lazy” or “uncoordinated” or “always late,” or “can’t remember names to save my life,” or “not good with languages” as if these are genetic traits biologically embedded in you. In fact they’re just habits that you can change with practice and goals.
So I’m moving forward slowly and steadily in my Tiny House design, I’ll write a dedicated post on my progress so far. It feels very exciting! Though successfully living in a tiny house is a whole other topic…